In your sexual life, you would like to have something specific... but you are not asking for it because you think it is not "appropriate" ?
What or who has determined that your desire is not appropriate ? Why are you leaving others decide what is good or bad ?
You are a tripartite being... you have a body, a mind and a soul. You have decided to have this physical life so that you may experiment certain things among the immense theoretical knowledge of your soul.
Your mind plays an important role in the discovery of who you really are. And you should let your mind make choices... and not limit yourself with whatever is dictated by others. Values should be set by
yourself not by others, including by your religion.
To come back to sex, if you are seeking a specific sexual experience that is important for you, don't let so call appropriateness determine the outcome. Ask your partner what it is you wish to have. Make
him understand that this is important for you.
You should determine what is good for you, not by following norms established by others. You must understand that God has not created disgusting things ! If for any reason your partner refuses to give you what you wish, then come and see me and I will do my best to have
you experience that which you wish to have.
Michel